Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Cada mes lo mismo

A sudden jab, a stab, an ache
definitely not her appendix.
But it hurts on that side, again.
She’s not paying much attention
as she slowly spirals
into melancholy and memories
triggered by sappy old songs and
intense feelings about missing out
and never again feeling “that feeling”.
Mirror madness -
disgusted with her body, face, hair.
Kitchen hatred -
the persistent coffee stain on the counter top,
the seven layers of white paint on cabinets,
the spots in the stainless steel sink.
Pathetic – her house cleaning.
Another twist, a pang,
incessant questions and neediness
from her child.
Spanish curse words under her breath.
She tries not to scold, yell, or show she’s nasty today.
She swallows two pills, washing them down with coffee,
they work faster like that,
shuts her eyes and listens...
to every possible song to further make her feel depressed.
She’s getting worse.
Moaning, whimpering, biting her bottom lip.
“I’m just hungry” she says.
She wants something,
really needs something.
“Like a burger?” (He thinks he knows.)
No, he doesn't even know, doesn't get it.
“Just take me out – now – before I freak,” she pleads.
Fifteen minute drive, fresh air, salvation
and a chocolate ice cream cone.
Yes. That was it.
In the morning, a faint pinkish stain,
that was why.

3 comments:

Mel Avila Alarilla said...

Hi Cassy,
I like your poem- very succinct not wordy but full of expression of one's inner feelings. The language is contemporary but the feelings are still the same. It tells about one's yearnings and inner struggles in one's being. Thanks for the poetry. I enjoyed it. God bless. I have linked you with my blog. I hope you will do the same with mine.

Fay said...

Hello Cassy,

I am pleased to announce Reach for More - Aspira a más has been added to Blogging Women. Thank you for creating such a wonderful blog. It's my pleasure to add another quality women's blog to the directory. Wishing you continued success!

Brenda said...

Very true-to-life. I should have my husband read this ... then he might get it!