Saturday, September 20, 2008

Drinking it all in

Depleted, I walk out onto the back step
barefoot and t-shirt
stand, quietly
rediscovering whistles and chirps
remembering the scent of grass and tree bark
tilting my head back to
let the sun kiss my face, my arms
closing my eyes, feeling my chest tighten
with heartache
missing the way the sun would hold and feed me
when I had the time to sit with her
I miss this
I miss her
my eyes water from too much light
but my skin drinks it in
something is taking over me
bringing me to tears
the sting of loss
exhaustion
and just plain wanting to sit and be.

9 comments:

Susan Helene Gottfried said...

Oh, man. I have SO been here; I think it's why I've recently fallen in love with camping after having done it only once in my life.

This is a great poem. Thanks.

The Fearless Blog said...

Me too, sister....

Responsibilities, children, chores... and sometimes no time to just "sit and be." Your words reflect much of what I feel at times, especially as I have gotten older. Do you think it's age? Or choice?

NathanKP said...

Thank you for writing such a beautiful poem.

NathanKP - Imagination Manifesto

Cassy said...

Susan - I've never been camping, but I know somehow that I would love to sleep under a tree, or outdoors in a tent as it rains...

Fearless - both choice and age... while I love what I do and where I'm at, it's starting to wear me down...

Nathan - thanks for the visit!

Nardeeisms said...

Beautiful. Hang in there Cassy. Hang in there...-Nards

Betty said...

Thanks for the beautiful words. Sometimes I just sit on my front porch and take in the beauty of the flowers. It's hard to make sense of everything that happens in life, but somehow quiet moments of beauty help.

Stella said...

Talk about painting a picture on my mind! Beautiful. simply beautiful!

Robin Easton said...

I relate so deeply to thsi right now...in fact I've always been like this. It's why I wrote my my post "I'd Rather" a few months ago. Adn I am REALLY feeling this way lately. Although I've camped all my life I feel like Susan H. G who said she has taken up camping. It's why I hike alone. I really needed to hear this today. Thank you for writing not only beuatifully but honestly. I really like this very much.

Stella said...

Casey, I am passing on the "I heart your blog" award to you for doing such a fantastic work blogging! felicidades chica!